lifesong
Everyone needs compassion
And love that never fails
Let mercy fall on me
When everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of the Saviour
The Hope of the nation
Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender
Shine a light in and
let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and
let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king
Monday, January 26, 2009
-00:26
I've recently been thinking alot about rejoining the music ministry..and serve God in an area i'm more familiar with..but many things i've been thinking about have been stopping me. One of them is how i felt in the past while serving in the old music ministry..Week after week this weak willed guy will sin against God again and again, sometimes even on the day he serves on stage. The baffling and amazing thing is, God still uses this guy week after week and the presence of God is still ushered into the congregation. This guy goes home many a times feeling like a hypocrite..like how he's so unworthy to even stand on the stage..yet God still uses him..the feeling really sucks..and i'm really afraid to be back there again.
The next thought that plague my mind is how i always feel i'm not good enough skills wise..cos in the past the worship team was filled with super zai ppl like louis.. jachin.. douglas..clarence(always act noob only haha) and i was like the lousiest there and always was the one making most of the mistakes. But this is in the past..and i noe i should stop looking back to wad was. I will never forget what jerrold once said to me.." A lousy grade violin when placed in the hands of a master, will sound even better than a top grade one in any other person's hands". I still remember it till today becos it really encouraged me and it reminds me that it is nv about our skill or what, but all abt God.
It's really baffling to think about how God loves paradoxes. How He uses the weak to overcome the strong like david and goliath, how He uses ppl with little skill to show the pros how it's really done. Like the story Rev Tony always shares abt the orater who once read out a psalm with such great anunciation that everyone clapped after he read finish. But the old man who read the exact same passage with pauses here and there and poor pronounciation, had the whole crowd tearing at the end. God rewards those who choose to do lesser and just wait upon God in His presence, but not the one who tries to do too much for God. This is in stark contrast with the way the world sees things..The list goes on...like how the humble and less assertive take leadership positions..the foolish things to shame the wise..
haha sidetracked with my random thoughts..i guess after all i'll come back to the music ministry soon=)..dun wanna be like the servant who buried the money he kept for his master..but for now i'll be straightening out some other stuff that's on my mind first..ciao
Monday, January 5, 2009
-00:30
was watching saw iv just now and i think it's really gross..gross to the point that it's disgusting...i think this is the only show that can make me look away from the screen several times..jigsaw is just plain psychotic..i feel so bad for the ppl who just keep getting cheated..like how they tot they can sacrifice a small part of their body to save their whole body, but end up just getting cheated and still die the death they were trying to prevent. But really, my hats off to james wan and Leigh Whannell who can actually think of such plots..arghh been really laggy on movies recently..i think it's just this stupid flight line crew job..make my whole life and body clock screwed up..one moment i'm working at 4am..the next it's 4pm. I dunno why recently i just feel so lethargic..like my eyes just feel so heavy all the time..even when i sleep for 15 hrs i still wake up with my eye feeling very strain..like the kind of feeling u get when u taunt (is that how u spell) at someone's hse and just dun sleep the entire night...so i think i'm going to try spam brands essence from today onwards..lol hope it works..